I have a boyfriend and i am happy with life i think Inside me there is a a big war. My brain is boiling sometimes because i have this feelings of being a submissive slave.I have never before talked or chat with a Dominant i am to shy or scared to find something inside me who will like or love that side of life scared to find out that i am submissive and need a owner (blushes)In my brain there is lots of leather rubber collars leashes and many strange thing but in my real life is normal life with boyfriend and ordinary friends.I dont know why I am here and what I am writing this will maybe look strange?? I can see myself becoming a long term slave-partner or slave wife in the future and/or perhaps part of a poly household serving my serving master or mistress along with several other slaves. My slavery and submission will start online and then move to Real Life (RL).